HOW IN THE HELL IS IT APRIL?!!?

For me, the beginning/first quarter of 2022 has looked MUCH different than past years.  Much less about coming in HOT, and much more about coming in very, very slooooww.  Still doing the work, but in a VERY different way than usual.  A more patient & gentle way.

Last year, I simply didn’t stop.  I laid a lot of ground work for my business, I traveled here, there, and everywhere, I went through an abortion and DIDN’T TAKE A BREATHE! I kept moving, and moving, and MOVING. 

I was in a mindset of “muscling through” all of it ; and I ended the year feeling WRECKED.  Physically and emotionally exhausted, burnt out, and simply put- “over it”.  

I knew this hectic state wasn’t something I could keep up; and for the first time ever- I made a decision to not set any massive goals right at Jan. 1…  but instead, chose to dedicate the beginning of 2022 SOLELY to hibernation. To chilling out and going inwards… and to letting time and space decide when I would start picking up the pace again, (if ever).

It was hard at first, I won’t lie… 

My nervous system didn’t know HOW to chill.  Even on the days I promised myself I wouldn’t do any “computer work”, I would find myself still needing to DO something… (You could likely find me deep cleaning or organizing every last item in the house in a full sweat.)

Eventually… it got easier.  Eventually, I remembered how to “just Be” again, even if only for moments. 

I moved through some deep shit (and still am), I tied up some loose ends, addressed some things that had fallen through the cracks.  I focussed on tracking my cycles and hormones and getting in tune with my body + rhythms again, rather than ignoring and overriding my needs.  

I’m rebalancing, refocussing, remembering, re-tuning… and I’m extremely RE-lieved. 

The world around me hasn’t stopped moving, but choosing to slow down my inner world has helped all that external feel a lot less overwhelming and unbearable.  The work is never done, but I’m beginning to feel a veil lifting, a light seeping in, and a spark flickering from the inside out.  Spring bloom is upon us, I suppose.  

…So hello there.  This is me.  Coming out of my cacoon, as a much healthier, happier, more centered version of myself. 

(And feeling called to share.  To let you know that it’s okay for YOU TOO, to take a break and a breathe sometimes…) 

Happy Spring, folks! Hope it’s everything you need and more <3